I woke this morning with the same dread and aching but i hope that it will get easier in time. Last night i rang my wife out of the blue, I asked her that when i moved out could we still do things together with the kids but just live separately? She did not say no but said we will see how things go, i am a bit worried that my scrambled head is trying to cling onto her the trouble is at the end of the day i still adore her and in a weird way i admire how well she is coping.
I know she walked out but it still must be hard for her anyway what triggered the question was she remarked that she was gonna take the kids swimming in a day or two, and this is something that we had not done yet mainly because we did not make the time and i would have loved to have gone with them. Everything on TV is about kids, marriage and the like, when i watch a film that i have seen before i remember that i was with her when i saw it. I am worried about going back to work next week as i work nights, one week on and one week off and sometimes every minute can feel like five and your brain goes into overdrive and does not stop thinking but first i have to kick my own ass and sort out a flat.
I have a permanent knot in my stomach it feels just like that you force yourself to eat because you feel sick and then you still feel sick after. Anyway thanks for listening. Alan
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