Hi Phoenix men, my name is Adam, I need a little help as I am going down hill fast.
My ex partner has been having an affair with my cousin. Whilst we have been separated I have been living at my Aunts house, my aunt is The mother of the man my ex partner is having the affair with.
I am really down & want to know when or if it will get better? I had my children with me at my Aunts house after school the other day, which was great.
My ex partner picked them up, and I could not help but to look at her as the person who destroyed my family.
One moment I hate her with a passion and I want untold pain & misery served on her both physical & mental, yet the next moment I break down as I miss her and love her so much, most nights I cry myself to sleep.
I am totally confused & weak. Why do I feel this way? And as I asked before, when does it get better? I send this to you as I sit here crying and spending another night alone. I miss my family so much. So please can anyone tell me when does it get better?
I am on anti-depressants given to me by my doctor, I am glad to be taking them as I feel without them, I would be feeling a lot worse. I go to work every day acting the Big Man and as if nothing is wrong to my work colleagues, but the reality is, I am a total wreck. I am sorry for boring you all, but I am finding telling my story is a little uplifting. If any of you listening to my story has been through this, then please tell me when will these bad feelings and thoughts go away? Thank you, Adam.